I think there just might be some truth in the whole early-to-bed-early-to-rise business.
I remember one of my friends telling me that it’s very easy to wallow in self-pity. It’s easy to curl up in the comfort of your depression. You know how you want to stay wrapped in your blankets in the winter even though it’s 10 in the morning and you have a long, long day ahead of you? Depression’s like that. It’s a snuggly blanket. It takes effort to get out of it.
I realise I love the night because it fuels my despondency. There’s something about darkness that throws you into delightful fits of despair. And you embrace the despair with open arms, with absolute relief. And then there’s the small matter of the moon. Have you ever seen anything so beautifully melancholic?
But the most important thing about night? It’s inspiring. Come on, nobody writes poems on a sunny day. My English teacher once wisely said — uh, they (the great poets) had better things to do when they were happy.
So I went to bed at around 3 last night feeling unloved and alone, convinced that I was going to spend my whole life feeling just that. And then I woke up in the morning feeling … fine. Though nothing had changed.